Everyday Is A New Beginning!

Thank god yesterday is over! It truly was the day from hell for me.

It began with Samuel clinging to me as he got on the bus. Everything was fine until he walked up the stairs. Then he turned to me with tears in his eyes and said, "No Mom...I don't want to go." It just broke my heart. The bus driver wasn't much help either because she never said one single word (Hi, it's ok, don't worry he will be fine), NOTHING! Of course that made me feel even worse. I said to Samuel, "You will be fine. I love you. I will see you here when you get off this afternoon." and turned around and walked away. Of course I was crying like a baby....it just killed me.

Later on in the day I picked up Samuel from school for an ear doctor appointment. The school wanted us to see a local doctor in case he needs special hearing devices for school. The doctor recommenced Samuel have hearing aids. There is no question that he can hear, but the tests show not very well. The doctor thinks that he has learned to adapt to his environment. The bad news is that our insurance does not cover hearing aids for children...only adults. They are expected to run between $2-3K. I have to admit....I didn't see that coming.

Amazingly enough when I took him back to school just before lunch...he didn't even cry. Must be the bus... However, I spent the rest of the afternoon getting Carter all registered for school. He will start Monday. In doing so, we walked past the play ground where Samuel happened to catch a glimpse of us. Yes, he started crying all over again, and he was crushed that he couldn't leave with me. I broke his heart twice in one day.

He was happy to see me when he got off the bus. Yep...they remembered to drop him off this time. In fact, this morning he didn't even cry when he got on. YEA!! I am keeping my fingers crossed that we are over the hump. It will help next week when Carter starts riding the bus too...At least they can keep each other company.

Oh.... what a day it was....hope I never have one of those for a while. Made Samuel cry twice, made Carter cry with his THREE immunizations, Joshua is sick and went to the doctor, got the shock of the hearing aids, my husband wasn't very sympathetic of my stressful day and Amanda...well....she is the typical teenage girl.

So at the end of the day....I took my frustrations out at the gym. I spent an hour on the elliptical machine. I managed to burn 600 calories, and go 5 miles. I was so proud of myself as that is the longest and hardest I have worked out in a very long time....and it felt soooo refreshing after the day I had.